Yesterday was also pretty laid back :D I gave a laptop I wasn't using to a friend who needed one, my dad showed up with a gift from my grandma (note to self call her later), and I did some weird shit :o
The weird shit was tarot cards. I'm not about to claim that tarot cards are some magical force, but I use them because they're very good at making apparent what you already know, not really some fortune-telling thing. And indeed, that's what it did, and it was quite helpful. I don't remember everything about what I learned in those spreads, what I do know though is the resulting thoughts I gathered:
From the first one, I had demonstrated better self-control, and controlling my life and destiny, and the most immediate way to continue doing so would be to check if I had any homework due. Indeed I did, for 3 of my classes, and those got done.
A second one I did right before bed said I was worried about my relationship with [REDACTED] is going, as well as financial woes I might have when we [REDACTED] for the first time; the solution it gave was to sleep on it, and not overthink it, and that I did. This one was purpose-built for doing right before bed, so it gave me something to look for in my dreams tonight as well: a small, minute, yet beautiful detail of some kind. Indeed, I had a dream where someone (my brain seems to think it was Phoenix Wright?) was playing the piano, and playing beautifully, until they reached a single note that was played incorrectly, and was so apparent that the playing stopped. I thought it sounded nice; a B chord to a C chord to a G chord (in what I presume is G major), but it apparently didn't sit right with the audience or the player. I also can't quite recall what was played, only the general chord structure of the melody, and a visual indicator of a thin, vertical, orange line coming out of the piano key right at the note that everyone thought sounded wrong. I don't get it, maybe a metaphor for how neurodivergence makes you think you're doing everything wrong, even if you aren't? I also got a message from a friend worrying in a similar vein this morning...
Lastly, this morning I did a third one that was seemingly more technical than the other two, namely because it required 9 cards in a strange order: it's called the Secret of the High Priestess, and its' claim is insight into current trends. I recall the meaning being that I should let my guard down more often, and take things as they come rather than meticulously plan things. Indeed, I do tend to be defensive around other people, worried I could say the wrong things even if it's largely not a problem (again tying into the previous spread from last night).
There's not a mystical force behind this, but if you believe what the cards say, and be honest with yourself in how you behave in reflectance of the cards' message, this is a useful tool. I'm hungry. Bye!